I had this funny chat with one of my friends,
and she kept telling me how disgusted she felt at the thought of me being a L.
It was funny so far ... till I got too serious, to confess my being so.
She hung up!!!
I kept listening to nothing in particular for minutes ,,,
My heart was beating like crazy,,,
My lips felt dry,,,
My eyes blurred with tears,,,
I had been rejected by my most trustworthy friend just because of my honesty.
I felt the world is falling over me ...
everything is staring at me with pity if not disgust,
I saw objects I cannot name surrounding me and smelling like rot!
I touched my breasts and intimate curves just to soothe a pain that stabbed me at that momement,
that I am still a woman, a beautiful, pure, innocent and good one.
that I am still a human who would accomplish her happiness, dreams and expectations without hurting others.
that I am still a "being" who would live quietly and happily with another "being" of her own choice.
I still believe that I am who I am ...
God had created me this way,
why would people execute my very existence when I am alive?
... or trying to be so?